This is not my first time
in fact I wish it was the last
Honestly it never ends well
though I'm having such a blast
Alive again with a racing heart
a smile that can warm the sun
Spinning my wheels and I'm ready to start
counting trophies that I haven't won
To feel this way just once
would be enough to wear me out
yet there's no way I want to fall asleep
and I am pleading from the mouth
As quiet as I possibly can
I whisper the message in your ear
Something I've never said before
something only your soul can hear
This won't be the first time
not even the second or the third
I've been down this path before
where the lines are broke and blurred
Sinking again with a breaking mind
a pain that could dim the sun
something that takes a hundred lifetimes to find
was found and lost all in one
To feel this way just once
would be enough to sell me out
but the price is much more steep
and I am bleeding from the mouth
As loud as I possibly can
I say exactly what I mean
when you're slipping through my hands
I'm trying hard not to scream
***
***
